Figure Drawing September 30th & October 7th 2019

•October 8, 2019 • 1 Comment

I’ve been having computer problems again so I am combining two weeks into one. Hope that is okay.


Time-lapse of session:

On October 7th I covered the attendance taking in addition to keeping time for the models. That is fairly difficult for me to do as I don’t feel like I talk to people well and I am always embarrassed that I have such a hard time keeping track of names. It went well all things considered, but it did cut into the amount of time I could spend drawing on many of the earlier poses.

I’m sure if I keep doing it, it will get easier and I am SURE that it could be argued that being able to talk to people is a more universally useful life skill than rendering humans.

No matter what I am very grateful to Steve and his comfortable inviting studio. I have learned a lot there and not all of it has been in class. There are some great people there.



Time-lapse on You Tube at:

Thank you for visiting my corner of the internet.


Figure Drawing September 23rd, 2019

•September 24, 2019 • 1 Comment

It’s amazing the things that my brain or more precisely my anxiety/depression can do to cloud what I am physically seeing. I wasn’t coping well yesterday. I thought that I had done a horrible job on my drawings and was really torn about posting them today. I was especially disappointed with the long pose.

While I was working on it, I kept thinking that I should have left early and not tried.

I looked at them today and really like the long pose.

Brains. Have to learn to live comfortably inside of them.

I have a new therapist that specializes in trauma work. She thinks that she can help me move from managing and handling my depression to actually eliminating the stuff that is oozing in from past events. Then I would only have to deal with the kind that happens when something depressing happens. I can’t imagine what a relief that would be and how much more energy I would have to actually live my life, create and function as a human. I would like that a lot.

Meanwhile I will keep putting one foot in front of the other, leaning on the humans that hold me up and doing the things that I need to do.

Thank you to those of you who check in here, check in with me in person and give me hope for the human race. Thank you.

Big Hugs and Lots of Love.


and the time-lapse:

Life Painting August 22nd & 29th with the Hungerford Art Group without a Name

•September 19, 2019 • Leave a Comment

Beatrice modeled for us.


Second session:


I had a lot of fun with the paint and the colors. Unfortunately I don’t think that I did justice to Beatrice who is far more lovely than this painting would lead you to believe. It is all opportunities to learn and grow… and I will continue to work on it.


Comfort Object

•September 17, 2019 • Leave a Comment


I am a member of the New York Figure Study Guild. I had joined for a variety of reasons.

  • A number of people had recommended that I do so.
  • They give opportunities for classes to members first.
  • It seemed like a good thing to have on my art resume.

I had never participated in the Annual Guild Show since I don’t do much with figures in my finished work. This year I wound up volunteering to help them with the Social Media stuff (Facebook and Instagram). At the meeting Enrique was wondering why so many members don’t participate in the show. I explained that for me I don’t see my work as figurative. He encouraged me to put a couple of my portrait paintings in the show…. the face being part of the human body and all.

I agreed to do so and picked out my two favorite life portraits to include in the show.


It bothered me though that they weren’t actually figures. Perhaps I get too caught up in labels… whatever. It was on my mind.

One night I was drawing one of my figure models. I was admiring the curves of her and the confidence and beauty that she resonates. Her beauty comes from the inside and surrounds her in ways she may not be fully aware of. She is comfortable in her own skin is a way that many people are not.

Like a lot of women (/humans) I have issues with my appearance. I am insecure. Some things have happened in my life which have tremendously amplified these fears.

So I am sitting there drawing this woman and thinking how much I would love it if someone in my life could see me the way that I see her. At this point I got very close to sliding down that steep drop off of self pity.

I did not. Instead I decided to pose for myself. To see myself not for what I think I look like nor what I would like to look like – but for my actual real presence. I have a friend who will often say “you can’t photograph it if it isn’t there”. I decided to not try to look “pretty” for my photos. To not focus on the things that I knew I could manipulate to look “good” in the photo – but to be me. My most vulnerable me. The me that wants to be loved. The me that longs to be comforted.

I made the drawing in silverpoint on Plike Paper. If you aren’t familiar with silver point, it is a very subtle medium. You can not only get amazing detail – but you have to get pretty close up to it in order to see what is going on. I felt that worked best for this piece as I wanted the image to feel intimate and lonely. People would have to get really close to the drawing to understand what they were looking at.

The finished piece is about 11″x12′. I framed it without glass so that the silverpoint will be exposed to the air and thus allowed to patina normally. (Plus glass would make it harder to see what was going on & reduce the intimacy of the piece).

This is the first time I have put myself into my art like this.

It was well received and got it’s red ‘sold’ dot on opening night (apparently after I had left – I didn’t find out it had sold until I came to Figure Drawing Monday night).

I appreciate someone liking this piece enough to bring it into their collection and I very much appreciate all of the positive feedback that I received. This was a difficult piece for me to create and to display. I don’t normally make my art so obviously personal (although much of it is).

I don’t know why it appealed to the buyer and I don’t know if they will ever know all of this – but it was good for me to do..

Thank you again everyone for your support and your love. I would be lost without you. Maybe having gone through this process will make me a teeny bit more brave going forward. I hope so.



side note: Since we were only allowed to submit two pieces for the show, I pulled the image of Mark and only submitted Michael and the silverpoint.

Figure Drawing September 16th, 2019

•September 17, 2019 • Leave a Comment

Usual Monday night get together at Steve Carpenter Studio.

I did arrive a bit late (for reasons). So I missed the first couple of short poses.


Time Lapse of the Drawing:

Chalking at Super City Rochester!

•August 28, 2019 • 1 Comment

This is the first year for Super City Rochester. I had a great time and hope to be able to play there again next year! (maybe I can even figure out how to go bigger with the drawing…)

The event started at 10am and the street I was going to be working on wasn’t scheduled to be closed off until 8am. This didn’t give me very much time to get a head start before people started to arrive. I opted to try a stencil this time instead of the gridding system that I have been using at Perry. This was less time consuming on site, but a WHOLE lot of prep work at home with some (less than) helpful kitty assistance.

The stencil was moderately successful. I don’t know if I would do it the same way again but it is really nice having the proportions worked out ahead of time.

In previous chalking posts I have talked about having to stretch and extend the proportions in order to get the image to look “right” when viewed at an angle. This is the rough for my stencil that shows you the proportions of the drawing. If you viewed my chalked piece from directly above – this is the shape of it.

It’s hard to fully “get” in the photos.

Drawing done on the iPad so that I could stretch it to the correct proportions.

Untitled_Artwork 9 Stencil after a liberal “pouncing” with the yellowest yellow (because I am in NO way affiliated with Amish Kapoor). U3FQ5hCUTPG2Nx3ta0xxiATyByZWU1Q22zZfzO4D+3vA

I didn’t take a photo of the stencil markings by themselves. The wind was quickly vanishing them. This is after chalking a rough outline over the stencil marks. AqEiZqRjQF67RnuCQostbA

My friend Jen came to visit before the official open of the event and took some photos for me. IMG_5138IMG_4582IMG_4581

Before she had to leave we gave the proper positioning a try. (Hi Jen!)


And back to chalking.


Bystander photo I stole off of facebook 🙂 Thank you!

IMG_4579x%iCvv8FR6qqNYBwMjkvZg The sun started creeping up on me and I was worried how that was going to go…qABcG+d%QqmwXV5z5SlD+w But then there was enough cloud/overcast that it really wasn’t that bad.




Grabbed this photo as I was leaving to go get lunch “just in case” something happened to it before I got back – but I didn’t wind up making it back after lunch. mknAUBkrQR+s4AzhVqY1zw

A couple people have sent me photos over the next few days. I won’t post them as even though it is holding up remarkably well for being driven over (and a decent size oil spot over the dragonfly) these pictures are better and we (I) would like to remember the nicest version of itself.

A big thank you to Magnus for thinking of me for this event and for Mark for inviting me to participate. I found out afterwards that this event was put together relatively quickly. They did a great job! With a whole year to plan the next one, I am hoping it will be even more amazing.


Figure Drawing – August 26th, 2019

•August 27, 2019 • 1 Comment

Feeling better about Life, the Universe and Everything this week. I don’t know if that makes my drawings any better – but it definitely makes everything SEEM better.

Our model did something awful to her ankle and came in on crutches. She had taken the time before hand to figure out a bunch of ways that she could make her poses interesting without putting any weight on that leg. I was very impressed.


and (of course) the time lapse if you are interested: