Between the Dreaming – The Opening

•November 12, 2019 • Leave a Comment


This has been so very very long in the making. I have been keeping so much of the artwork under wraps so that it could be a surprise. It’s been hard and now that it is finally hung, open and will be coming down in a few weeks…. it’s so much and so overwhelming that I can’t really cover it all here.

The show is still on Whitman Works website here: Between the Dreaming: TeeJay Dill

and the photos on my website of most of the paintings (but not the drawings) can be found here: Between the Dreaming

So here are some of the photos from the opening and work that is in the opening (in no particular order). There are SO many people to thank and I hope that I have done so in person. I am so incredibly fortunate to have the group of humans around me that I do. I feel loved and supported in the things that I do.

The installation. Some of the drawings weren’t on the wall. Hard to get everything in one shot, so here are a couple of panoramics.



The center wall when you first walk in. That center painting is so massive that it makes everything else look small in the photos. My mom helped me decorate everything and the black roses are from a wonderful human. The vase in the corner was created my Maureen Robbins who also shows at Whitman Works. The greenery on the walls are fresh lavender bundles out of my yard.


I am always hesitant to explain people my meanings when I create work. Mostly in the event that it doesn’t sync up with what people think it may mean. This one does have a story behind it. Ask me about it if you are interested.

birdhouse Bonnie

This one doesn’t have a story (yet).


This one was probably the crowd favorite at the opening and one of the first pieces to sell. (thank you again Ed). It was one of the last pieces that I made before the show opening and is done primarily in acrylic inks on DuraLar. It is painted on both sides of the paper and the castle and the large white spot are on another piece of paper behind the DuraLar. This is a new technique for me and I plan on making many more pieces with these materials.



Yes. It’s me. Hard at Work.



I made the mushrooms out of paper mâché in my living room (way too soon before the show for them to dry properly) and my mom and I made the little round furry critters that are around the base.


This one has a story, was made at IMC this summer and is one of the pieces that I made public before the opening. Again, I can talk to you about what it means to me in person if you like. I will tell you that it deals with nurturing our habits/addictions.



Thank you everyone again for all of your support. I am living a life beyond my wildest dreams and so many people have helped (and continue to help) that become a reality. I hope that I have brought a little magic and wonder into your life as well.


Thank you. I am humbled.

Figure Drawing October 14th, 2019

•November 12, 2019 • Leave a Comment


The link for the time lapse:


Figure Drawing September 30th & October 7th 2019

•October 8, 2019 • 1 Comment

I’ve been having computer problems again so I am combining two weeks into one. Hope that is okay.


Time-lapse of session:

On October 7th I covered the attendance taking in addition to keeping time for the models. That is fairly difficult for me to do as I don’t feel like I talk to people well and I am always embarrassed that I have such a hard time keeping track of names. It went well all things considered, but it did cut into the amount of time I could spend drawing on many of the earlier poses.

I’m sure if I keep doing it, it will get easier and I am SURE that it could be argued that being able to talk to people is a more universally useful life skill than rendering humans.

No matter what I am very grateful to Steve and his comfortable inviting studio. I have learned a lot there and not all of it has been in class. There are some great people there.



Time-lapse on You Tube at:

Thank you for visiting my corner of the internet.


Figure Drawing September 23rd, 2019

•September 24, 2019 • 1 Comment

It’s amazing the things that my brain or more precisely my anxiety/depression can do to cloud what I am physically seeing. I wasn’t coping well yesterday. I thought that I had done a horrible job on my drawings and was really torn about posting them today. I was especially disappointed with the long pose.

While I was working on it, I kept thinking that I should have left early and not tried.

I looked at them today and really like the long pose.

Brains. Have to learn to live comfortably inside of them.

I have a new therapist that specializes in trauma work. She thinks that she can help me move from managing and handling my depression to actually eliminating the stuff that is oozing in from past events. Then I would only have to deal with the kind that happens when something depressing happens. I can’t imagine what a relief that would be and how much more energy I would have to actually live my life, create and function as a human. I would like that a lot.

Meanwhile I will keep putting one foot in front of the other, leaning on the humans that hold me up and doing the things that I need to do.

Thank you to those of you who check in here, check in with me in person and give me hope for the human race. Thank you.

Big Hugs and Lots of Love.


and the time-lapse:

Life Painting August 22nd & 29th with the Hungerford Art Group without a Name

•September 19, 2019 • Leave a Comment

Beatrice modeled for us.


Second session:


I had a lot of fun with the paint and the colors. Unfortunately I don’t think that I did justice to Beatrice who is far more lovely than this painting would lead you to believe. It is all opportunities to learn and grow… and I will continue to work on it.


Comfort Object

•September 17, 2019 • Leave a Comment


I am a member of the New York Figure Study Guild. I had joined for a variety of reasons.

  • A number of people had recommended that I do so.
  • They give opportunities for classes to members first.
  • It seemed like a good thing to have on my art resume.

I had never participated in the Annual Guild Show since I don’t do much with figures in my finished work. This year I wound up volunteering to help them with the Social Media stuff (Facebook and Instagram). At the meeting Enrique was wondering why so many members don’t participate in the show. I explained that for me I don’t see my work as figurative. He encouraged me to put a couple of my portrait paintings in the show…. the face being part of the human body and all.

I agreed to do so and picked out my two favorite life portraits to include in the show.


It bothered me though that they weren’t actually figures. Perhaps I get too caught up in labels… whatever. It was on my mind.

One night I was drawing one of my figure models. I was admiring the curves of her and the confidence and beauty that she resonates. Her beauty comes from the inside and surrounds her in ways she may not be fully aware of. She is comfortable in her own skin is a way that many people are not.

Like a lot of women (/humans) I have issues with my appearance. I am insecure. Some things have happened in my life which have tremendously amplified these fears.

So I am sitting there drawing this woman and thinking how much I would love it if someone in my life could see me the way that I see her. At this point I got very close to sliding down that steep drop off of self pity.

I did not. Instead I decided to pose for myself. To see myself not for what I think I look like nor what I would like to look like – but for my actual real presence. I have a friend who will often say “you can’t photograph it if it isn’t there”. I decided to not try to look “pretty” for my photos. To not focus on the things that I knew I could manipulate to look “good” in the photo – but to be me. My most vulnerable me. The me that wants to be loved. The me that longs to be comforted.

I made the drawing in silverpoint on Plike Paper. If you aren’t familiar with silver point, it is a very subtle medium. You can not only get amazing detail – but you have to get pretty close up to it in order to see what is going on. I felt that worked best for this piece as I wanted the image to feel intimate and lonely. People would have to get really close to the drawing to understand what they were looking at.

The finished piece is about 11″x12′. I framed it without glass so that the silverpoint will be exposed to the air and thus allowed to patina normally. (Plus glass would make it harder to see what was going on & reduce the intimacy of the piece).

This is the first time I have put myself into my art like this.

It was well received and got it’s red ‘sold’ dot on opening night (apparently after I had left – I didn’t find out it had sold until I came to Figure Drawing Monday night).

I appreciate someone liking this piece enough to bring it into their collection and I very much appreciate all of the positive feedback that I received. This was a difficult piece for me to create and to display. I don’t normally make my art so obviously personal (although much of it is).

I don’t know why it appealed to the buyer and I don’t know if they will ever know all of this – but it was good for me to do..

Thank you again everyone for your support and your love. I would be lost without you. Maybe having gone through this process will make me a teeny bit more brave going forward. I hope so.



side note: Since we were only allowed to submit two pieces for the show, I pulled the image of Mark and only submitted Michael and the silverpoint.