Hazy Days

I would like to be posting my drawings from Figure Drawing last night here today. I can’t because I didn’t go. I haven’t been feeling well. Mostly physically but some mentally. Could very well be tied into the not feeling well physically but it is hard to tell.

I feel disconnected from me. Like I don’t recognize me in the mirror anymore. I mean, I know I am getting older and there are changes that come from that. It is something slightly other than that. I can’t quite put my finger on it.

A good friend of mine has been talking about having come here from one of the other parallel Universes. He has a reason why that change was necessary. He still has a very strong sense of who he is but he said that in the cross over there has been some slight discrepancies between what he remembers and what the people here remember.

It’s not that.

It’s not the world that feels off. It’s me. I feel more like someone swapped me out for someone else who is almost but not quite me more than I feel the world has changed. Perhaps like I used to be tethered in some way to something that I am not anymore.

It’s confusing. It’s fuzzy. But is also holds promise. If I am not what (or who) I was – what am I to become?

Standing at the edge of something.

I did draw yesterday. Some of the stuff I am working on is secret. Some of it is for tattoos. And some of it is just because. Here is the just because stuff from the last few days.

Valentine’s Day is right around the corner….
My redraw from Monsters.Go of this drawing by Jackson

and I got my first ever book credit for a headshot (insert confused smiling emoji here). I took a photo of Ed Ashton for his book cover and they gave me credit on the hardcover liner. That is super cool and I am really happy for Ed that his book is doing so well.

He and Jen dropped off a copy that Ed signed for me so this gets to be that random story that I get to tell later about how I knew them back when (laughing emoji should go here I think).

Here’s a good place for a plug! You should go buy a copy of Ed’s book. Be one of the people who can say that they read it before the movie came out. Edward Ashton – Mickey 7

Another redraw project. The original was sent to me by a friend that would like a more traditional tattoo version of the artwork but I wanted to play with it anyhow.

I’m not sure what the original intent was with the fish hook but I liked the imagery so I included it as well.

Thank you for being here for my rambling. Thank you for being supportive when I don’t quite know what is going on.

Be patient with one another and yourselves. This Universe is still really weird.

~ by justteejay on February 8, 2022.

3 Responses to “Hazy Days”

  1. That weird and quiet disconnect. Yeah… like when you are on the internet watching a movie and the words are slightly shifted from the talking faces. Right, but not all the way. A left handed shimmer of reality plus.

  2. Hugs to you. I hope you can get in sync or phase with your heart…

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