Figure Drawing September 23rd, 2019
It’s amazing the things that my brain or more precisely my anxiety/depression can do to cloud what I am physically seeing. I wasn’t coping well yesterday. I thought that I had done a horrible job on my drawings and was really torn about posting them today. I was especially disappointed with the long pose.
While I was working on it, I kept thinking that I should have left early and not tried.
I looked at them today and really like the long pose.
Brains. Have to learn to live comfortably inside of them.
I have a new therapist that specializes in trauma work. She thinks that she can help me move from managing and handling my depression to actually eliminating the stuff that is oozing in from past events. Then I would only have to deal with the kind that happens when something depressing happens. I can’t imagine what a relief that would be and how much more energy I would have to actually live my life, create and function as a human. I would like that a lot.
Meanwhile I will keep putting one foot in front of the other, leaning on the humans that hold me up and doing the things that I need to do.
Thank you to those of you who check in here, check in with me in person and give me hope for the human race. Thank you.
Big Hugs and Lots of Love.
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Part of the creative process is seeing things from a perspective that is uniquely yours – through the filter of your own experiences. I hope you can find clarity and peace.