A lot has happened this past week. A whole lot.

I lost someone very important to me this week. A wonderful woman who had crossed my path a while back and has stayed in my heart ever since. She taught me a great deal. I will be forever grateful to her for that.
She spoke often of the Spark that is inside every single one of us. How some of us diminish that Spark through inactivity – some of us try to drown the Spark with drinking or drugs – and some of us try to flame the Spark and share it with others. She taught me about that and she reminded me every time that I saw her to cherish that Spark.

The world will be a dimmer place without you love.

Thank you for sharing yourself with me and with the world. You will live on in those who loved you.


On Monday I went to drawing class because she would have wanted me to.

gesture drawinggesture drawingfigure drawing

Today throughout the day I mourned, visited and laughed with friends. Some old. Some brand new.

Tonight I am going to go home and hopefully finish up the last painting for the hanging at the Owl House. I was able to put several more of them into frames today.

Oil paintings by TeeJay

It was pointed out to me (which I knew but had been trying to not think about) that there will be an opening type of thing for this and I am expected to attend.
I will “suit up and show up” and hopefully some of my loved ones will be able to come and support me… But I also know for here on out that I have a very special Angel to help get me through whatever lies ahead.

~ namaste ~

~ by justteejay on December 6, 2011.

14 Responses to “Personally…”

  1. So sorry to hear about your friend.

  2. I am sorry for the loss of your friend teejay…. you are on my heart….. lovin’

  3. I’m so sorry to hear about your friend. As someone who has recently lost a dear friend I can understand. If you’d like to chat, or just sit in silence next to someone drinking coffee just drop me a line.

    • That actually made me laugh Melinda. I was thinking that I never really liked coffee and she used to serve me the WORST coffee ever. So I guess the thing to do would be to get together over a cup of really bad coffee : )
      I would love to see you (and drink decent coffee) anytime and you can tell me about your friend.

  4. My thoughts are with you and so is my heart.

  5. bughugs

  6. Aww Im so sorry TeeJay.. Its always good to think that they would want you to keep going and they will always be looking over you.. Love you

  7. That’s a wonderful tribute. Yes, it sounds appropriate that you went to figure drawing class and fueled your spark. I wonder if there might be a therapeutic aspect to the process of drawing as well.

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