Does there have to be Stress?
Again, thinking about the steps outside the comfort zone. One of my teachers had told me that if you are working on a piece of art and it isn’t uncomfortable, then you aren’t learning anything. So I am figuring that I am in the midst of a huge growth spurt at the moment.
Artistically I am intentionally pushing myself in all sorts of directions where I have never pushed before. I have traditionally stayed within the range of things that I believed that I could do well. I am now bounding into areas that I thought I would fail spectacularly in and am not only growing and learning but am also enjoying immensely. I have talented people around me who are pushing themselves as well and most importantly we are having fun.
Last night I had another client fly in to see me. When that first happened I remember being amazed and flattered. I still am. I am honored that people are willing to travel great distances to allow me to do work for them. There can also be a great deal of stress involved in that. Especially in the days leading up to the appointment. The past week it seemed like everyone around me was sick. I was admittedly worried that I would wind up ill. How could I possibly cancel on someone who had gone through so much to come and see me? (This amazing woman not only flew in and paid an exorbitant fee to take a cab from the airport but she also walked from the hotel to the shop in the dark!) Fortunately everything worked out well in the end and this morning she is heading home happy (but sore).
Professionally I have made some minor changes and am about to embark on another huge one. There is fear and trepidation, but there is also great excitement.
I live by the belief that everything goes the way it is supposed to go…. but that doesn’t stop me from having opinions about how I want things to go! Will the Universe bring the things that I am pursuing at this moment? Or does it have something better in mind? Where will we all be tomorrow?
I will just keep putting one foot in front of the other and do my best to enjoy the ride…. doing my best to remember that the excitement and surprise are part of the fun.